BLACKPORES!!!!!

You couldn`t possibly know how much I`ve hated you!!!!

YOU make me feels uncomfortable, very very UNCOMFORTABLE!!!

You make me lose confidence,

Getting uglier!!!!

YOU STUPID, USELESS BLACKPORES!!!!

YOU make me looks more like i`m putting on a STRAWBERRY than a NOSE when i sneeze!!!!!

HATE YOU HATE YOU HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MONEY$$

Is money THAT important to you?!

Yeah of course, to us, maybe it is, but totally not YOU!!

Why do you always have to talk about money stuffs when there is none of your business??

And why do you always have to sigh when you didn`t strike a 4D??

Why did you have to worry about money??

You have all you needed: a warm house that always welcoming you, lots of food, TV shows, pretty clothes.....

Why was THAT soooooooooo important to YOU??

If you strike the lottery alright,

What will you do with the money??

Spending it by travelling the world??

I DONT THINK SO.

Become a rich shopaholic??

NO WAY.

Buying lots of food you liked??

YOU NEVER DID.

So why you need so much money????????????

I really dont understand.

I can never understand you...

Durian FEAST!!!

Yay!! Durian season!!

Ha! I love durian, it`s fragrance, creamy flesh...

Oh yummy!!

And I had nothing but LOTS of durian for dinner...

Yeshh...

lolx

And now I felt my throat was sooooooooo freaking HOT!!

><" (sob* sob*)

But nevermind,

`Cause I get satisfied already.

lolx

Well, as for some of you that dislike durian,

You probably have hated its strong odour,

But actually,

As my uncle migrating BACK from Australia had said,

It smells like hell, but taste like heaven!

And it really does!!

lolx

So don`t miss the season!!

TAE-KWONDO

No doubt. I`m a Tae-kwondo member alright!

Though I don`t even know how to punch others on the face yet..><"
Lolx

It`s not that I don`t want to be a scout anymore,

is that my school`s scout troop is only open for boys!

Yeshhh...

Nevermind, I`ll tell u what happened yesterday afternoon..

I got up early than usual `cause we`ll have co-curiculum today and we have to go to school earlier.

After the 'Nilam' activity, we gone for our curiculum activities.

This week is supposed to be 'uniform society',(i guess that was what i`m trying to tell)lolx

So I went for my Tae-kwondo meeting at the Block G hall.

Well, I`m not prepared for any activity that might makes me soooooooooooooooooooooooo exhausted.

We were told to strech our legs apart and made a (sort of sitting without chair) pose in Cantonese we called it 'zat ma' for 10 minutes!!

Yesshhhhhhh...

At the first few minutes I already felt my muscle was in pain, a few more minutes later, the pain had gone, but my legs started trembling..

Trembling really hard..

I wondered if someone saw it `cause I felt it`s more like an earthquake already.

My muscles were shaking so hard. DAMN hard!

And I was wondering if my ass would bump onto the floor.

Fortunately I didn`t.

Yesssssshhhhhhhhhhh..

And I thought I might have a muscular cramp then..

Well, by now if I bent down a little I could still felt the pain inside.

Damn shit!

But nevermind,

my elder sister told me that if I do this more often I might not felt the pain anymore..

Well, that`s what she said...

But I won`t gave in so easily, NEVER!

OMG!! ><"

MY GRADES SUCK!!!

Yeah. I got poor grades for this exam. No joke.

Almost every subject were getting worse.

*_*

And the most terrible thing is,

ALL my language papers were within seventies..

*sigh*

Do my Malay, English, Chinese suck that badly?! I`ve no idea about it.

*_*

And one of my friend in the van asked me about my grades,

So I said, 'couldn`t be lousier, I got poor grades, real POOR grades for this exam.'

So she told me that she was okay.

Then she added,' I got improvement in most of the subject, only BI remained 71.'

As though I wasn`t humiliated enough..><

Some of them,

I mean my friends got improvement in their exam..

It`s like only my papers got worse..

*sigh again*


It`s not that I wanna to compare my grades with others, (and I hate to do that)


It`s I lose to myself..


I didn`t get better, but worse..


Most of them got improvement, (as I said)

But not me.

I so wanna to scream out loud,

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

' Way to go Nat!' cheered Jimmy as he patted me on the shoulder.

As I got runner- up in the 100 metre run within 7.58 seconds.

' Yeah, thanks.' that was all I could said. I couldn`t be happier, because I`ve broken my own record by 1.31 seconds.

But something bothered me more than this.

It was the girl sitting on the front row of the bleachers.

She was smiling at me. So I gave her my best smile after the exhausted run.

' Where are you going to celebrate huh?' asked Jimmy. I didn`t reply. As I was too busy glancing at the girl.

' So you`re in love huh, dear pal?' teased Jimmy. I blushed.

' Well, so who`s that girl? You know her?' asked Jimmy curiously.

' No. I don`t even know her name or her class.' I replied dryly.

' Why don`t you go and say 'hi' to her and introduce yourself?' suggested Jimmy.

' But wouldn`t it be weird if you say 'hi' to someone you don`t know?' I replied anxiously.

' All I know is if you don`t try the first step, you`ll never get to the top, now go!' he urged. And he pushed me towards the girl.

It was the school's Sports Day so all the students were given half an hour break after the game before the lessons started.

The girl stood up and walked towards the cafeteria.

' Hey, wait up!' I shouted as I raced to catch up with the girl.

' Erm...Hi, I`m Nathaniel Davenport, everyone call me Nat. So, what`s your name?' I asked.

' I`m Julie Cartwright.' she replied and held out a friendly hand.

We shook hands and I offered, 'may I help you with the books Julie?'

' Yes, please.' she replied politely.

' May I buy you a drink?' I asked as we reached the cafeteria.

' Well, an orange juice will be fine.' she said. 'Thank you.' she added.

I carried a glass of orange juice and walked towards our table.

' Didn`t you buy yourself a drink?' asked Julie.

' No. I`ll just be fine.' I replied.

' So, where do you stayed?' I asked curiously, wanted to know more about her.

' Well, my hometown`s at Boston and I stayed just near the school, at Street 9.' she said.
' What about you?' she asked.

' Near the school as well, just a few blocks away.' I said.

' So, what are your hobbies?' I asked again.

She didn`t even bother to reply when the bell rang.

' Here you go.' I said as I handed back the books to her. ' So, can we have lunch together tomorrow during recess time?' I asked.

' Sure.' she replied cheerfully. ' Well, I really have to go now before Mr. Fletcher get me caned.' she joked.

I`m in LOVE with..

the movie--Bodyguards and Assassins!!

Well, you probably think that i`m out-dated `cause it was somehow a little bit "old" movie already..

But never mind I accept it, lolxD!!

Well i think that i`m getting into action movies lately as i watched a lot, like SPL, Bodyguards and Assassins and so on.

GOSH me..

Donnie was so so "yeng" in the movie called SPL..

He acted as a good guy and he wore a 'V'-neck shirt and that was so so cool..

*well, sometimes i`m watching those cute guys too..as i`m also a girl what..hehexD

But he`s not really that kind of 'cute' but what we said in Cantonese is called 'yeng' lar..

Well that`s what i`ve been saying..lolx

About the Bodyguards and Assassins,

It was a very very touching and also a REAL China history..

OMG..

It was unbelievable awesome movie!!

And it 'earns' my tears too..well..

But what i`m here to say is,

If you dudes havent watched it,

do buy a CD, (*`cause most probably cinema didnt sold the tickets already)

It really really worth watching...

But anyway, happy holiday!!

Disappointed..

Ha! What a dumb?!

I think im the only stupid that will only trusted someone 100% and think that they`re my best friends which will help me whenever im in trouble..

Ha! No way man!!

This world is realistic, if u`re not good, u`re left out, being abandoned..

No pain no gain!!

They wanna to get help from me but they refused to help me..

Is this what friends are about??

I really dont understand..

I`m really depressed..

Totally frustrated..

I thought that I got a true friend at last..

Which I can share my thoughts, my feelings, my sadness, my happiness with..

But now..

They even refused to help..

I know that sometimes u might not wanna to share everything with ur friends, but..

What i asked for is a very small matter, only photos for school project..

Is that so hard for u to get it for me??

Even if I begged u??

*sigh*

My Gang

Haha..

What a surprise..(to me)

I got a whole NEW gang!!

What I meant gang was not that kind of foolish person, numb around fighting with others..

But a few girls chatting & gossiping around!!

Ah..What a relief..

I`m so so happy & I felt like going school is no more a burden or sth to me again..

It`s about FUN!!

Haha..

It`s good to have some nice friends which was as crazy as I am so we all can fool around together..

I found mine..

I think so..

And I hope this relationship would last forever as YW & HY & ME!!

Best friends forever!!

A month..

DAYS PASS BRISKLY..

Today is my FIRST month in new school..

I thought something nice would happen but instead, lots of things gone nuts..

It`s really NOT my day..

Teacher passed the Moral test paper to us during second period before recess..

When I saw mine..

No words came out from my mouth..

It`s unbelievable...

Shocking..

Then, I felt my heart sank.

I`m totally DEPRESSED..

I got 58 over 100 for this paper..

It considered as a C..

I`ve never got a C before..

I felt really sad & frustated..

But then I came back to reality again.

Then I told myself:

What am I going to do next is totally NOT to cry..

So, I watched my paper carefully, checking whether there are some kind of mistakes made or what..

Then I found one.

So, I came to the teacher for a double-check.

But the teacher explained that I answered wrongly JUST because that I never wrote that stupid "keluarga" word..

Again,

My heart sank. This time sank even deeper..

But then I told myself:

Oh yeah, I got a C for Moral test..

The person who got the first position in class got a C.

SO WHAT.

And I promised myself to do better next test..

To SHUT those bloody-fool`s big mouth..

FUNNY Characters..

I met someone really freaky these days..

Kidding me..

They`re like something`s wrong with them..

I mean their mind, their way of thinking..sometimes really horrifying..

They always like to compete..Competing those stuffs like scores they get for their exams..

Yeah, maybe you think that it is just normal, but to me..it ISN`T..

Because they aren`t just wanna know other`s score but they REALLY meant to compete with others..

Sometimes they even said something weirder like, "I must win you, I sure can defeat u.." Or something like this..

This is HORRIFYING, anybody like that could be having MENTAL PROBLEM if they lose..

GOSH ME..

And even scarier, they just sat BESIDE me!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....................

I wanna scream out loud & sit some other places but there`s no other place than that!!

I rather sit alone than with some FUNNY characters like this one..

GOSH!!!

Exam Results..

Everybody were so excited about the results they`ll get..

& I`ve found out that some of them was so so "kea~su" (in Hokkien)..

It`s like when they get results that`s already satisfied (to me lah..), but they still saying something like, "Oh shit!! My god!! This result is not good.."

Come on, this is just a test, I meant, it`s not the FINAL EXAM that is to decide which class we shall enter..just relax & face it..It`s just a B, if u defeated by just a B, then how could u face something like when u`re getting a C or something even worse..

It`s hard say but, facts are something that u couldnt possible to change it or something..

If it`s a thing that is out of our control, then why we cant just relax & face it??

ART

Dammit!! Today is my last day of exam & everybody were giving hi-fives to each other after our last exam--- ART!!!

My art was so lousy even boys done better than I am..

SHIT!!

My drawing was lousy but my painting was even worse..

I cant bare to look at my score when I get back this shit..

GOSH...

I hope nothing but just to get a PASS for this exam, even just forty over a hundred & I`ll be soooooooooo happy already..

GOD BLESS ME!!

z & I

z & I was best friends since we met few years ago..

z was kind, easy-going & hardworking n so we get along very well since then..

We talk about everything, about our family, cousins & always gossiping around..

Sometimes we even hang out in my house having hi-tea n chit-chatting around n we have so much fun together..

BUT everything changed when we forced to separate to different schools, & now I`m in z`s school, z seems dont really wanna to talk to me or something..

Sometimes when we met each other, we`d just simply said a "hi" or something, then z go find others n continue their conversations..

When it was my first day of school over there, z still gave me an sms asking me whether i`m still okay with the new school n whether i prefered to walk with z after school or something..
N sms telling me that we`re still BFFs..

NOW, we`ll just talk about something boring like, "how was ur exam?", "those questions really hard right?" something like that n z then met up with friends n I met up mine..N we hardly even talk more than three sentences a day..

Sometimes z went to my classroom, and z was talking to the others but not to me, not even a SINGLE WORD..

GOSH ME..

I really dont understand the dignity for BFFs..

Could BFFs be separated so easily? I know that I cant blamed z for this but..

you really couldnt understand this kind of feeling..

It`s like we`re so near, but we`re so far..

ENGLISH

I know that my English S***, but please dont just laugh at me..
CORRECT me!!

everytime i tried to speak it correctly but it doesnt seems to go on well..
I speak stupid n silly things n others keep on laughing at my mistakes doesnt even guide me to speak it correctly..it makes me feel embarassed n i so wanna to hide somewhere else so that nobody sees my face..

Gosh me..

I really HATE it sooooo much!!u really look bad when others laughing at the mistakes u made..

HATES!!

Crazy

I felt something not right again..

Now im transferred to another school yet my heart still not over there..Im having exam that last for two weeks until 8th of April..Gosh me..

& mom had asked for permission to let me continued my scout activities in old school..Im kinda like embarassed or something..Dont really feeling like to be abandoned again.. I really hate that kind of feeling..It`s really frustrated n i DAMNED hate to being treated like that again..

WHY?? why me again?? why am I being abandoned n left behind over n over again n no one did care about it..why me..why??